of aches & erasers

today i thought the korean kids how to play eraser war.
because their dad brought a whole bag full of erasers from korea.
to my surprise,
they didn't know how to play it.
hmmm, maybe it's a malaysian thing.

it is where each person has a set of erasers,
and u have to take turns to move the eraser
till it's on top of another
so the person with the most erasers, win.

brought me back to my primary school days
where we visit the bookstore in school frequently
to get any kind of eraser there is.


then after tuition,
christine, yian, he, and i
went to play badminton.
which we haven't been playing for a long time
but christine and yian have.
had to fix the grips some more.
see... how long we didn't touch the racquet.

it reminded me so much of high school days,
we used to play badminton every week.
i remember jeremy, justin, and nick
teaching me how to smash, hit high balls, etc.
they even bought me a whole pink racquet.

boy i miss those days
*sighs returning back to reality*



now i'm aching.
shoulders, arms, legs.
but i would still wanna play some more =)

random thoughts.

4 more days till it's time for a new short sem.

i miss my mum and brother.

starting to get used to him working
& having not much time to spend with me
& doing things without him.

i'm addicted to online shopping,
bought my first dress online.
buying a few more items.

just realized that i cry easily,
even more when i see other people crying.

my bed feels empty
cuz all the soft toys that people gave have been sent to wash.
hope my mum didn't trick me and gave it away instead.

my room is still messy
even though i said i'll clean it up when my exam ends.

i'm here writing
cuz it's either this or doing things that i'm supposed to.

i think i'm getting a big fat C for one of my subjects.

i'm too lazy to write anymore random stuff....
and since i think he won't update anytime soon...
i've decided to post his graduation photos.

soon,
3 will become more real.

One World
18 August 2009

after receiving his empty scroll

obligatory photo
it was so hard to find one that can take nice photos okayyyyy...

how smart is he with his tailor made suit
thanks to me
who chose the better material

taken by his dad,
who said that it was like taken by a professional

dessert at chili's
should have gone to bubba gump instead
shucks
nevermind..
next time =)

to my dear den den.

these past 6-7 months passed by so quickly.
now, ur back in UK doing masters.
i truly had a lot of fun going out with u when u were back.
made me miss high school days though.
sigh.
now...
im all alone in msia.
while u girls are all over the world.
we better go on a holiday when we start working.
hopefully before 3.

breakfast @ mcd's before u left

of course we had to end the day with some camwhore sessions
haha

seriously...?

i seriously have no idea what God has planned out for me
or for us.

i've been thinking
and decided that i definitely don't mind the extra income from my tuition classes
to add into our "savings"
but i also don't mind not teaching.
cuz really....
it's tiring to travel up to subang for that 1 & 1/2 hours
going through the insane jam
get tortured
and travel back

before i talked to Ms.Lee today,
i decided that if she will not allow me to change the tuition classes to suit my time,
i will stop teaching.
cuz i've asked her before
and she said that i can't change.
but when i talked to her just now,
she said okay, can change
cuz she wanna change the new mandarin teacher
that replaced him.




so God...
i really have no idea what You've planned out for us.
for now,
i'll just go along with the things that You've placed in our lives.


for now,
it's still the same.
3.

not surprised.

exams are finally over and done with!
i wont be surprised if i fail or get C's for this sem.
seriously.
sigh.
guess i dont want my A's that much anymore.
why la...???

why must i keep playing my games
and surfing the net
instead of studying....!
aww man.

i wont be surprised if i fail today's paper
seriously.

miss u.

i miss u.
my kevin-idiot-ng

help!

i need help!
ah!
my mind has gone on an early semester break
even before my exams are over
how la.
tell me!
how?
i can't seem to start studying
ah!
i need to start soon if i wanna sleep early
bah
this sucks!
i hate studying!
maybe i should just off my comp
think i'll do that.


God, help me to focus please...

last.

can't wait!
can't wait!
3 down,
1 more to go!
i can't wait!
i can't wait for my exams to end!
phew!
it's coming to an end.

just got back from futsal.
had fun running around
instead of being cooped up in my room
writing out notes.

i'm too tired to start writing actually.
so i'll rest for a while before starting.

i can't wait!

rant rant rant.

i cant continue studying until i've ranted here
ugh
as some of u know,
i wont be able to attend cia's wedding ceremony.
sigh.
so depressed.
when i found out,
i wanted to cry.

prayed for a solution.
and there was a solution.
but sigh...
good things wont come so easily sometimes right?

so a decision needed to be made.
which was followed by God's peace.
that's why i know i've made the right decision.
but before i made the decision,
he layan-ed me
by coming up with pro's & con's
though he knew very well that i should sit for the exam
no questions asked
i know it's quite silly to come up with that list.
but oh wells.
i needed assurance

taken with his N79
so chun huh
haha
credits to the *ahem ahem* pro
*grins*

and so....
the decision is that i would go for my exam.
that's why i'm studying now silly!
if not,
who cares bout the exam!
sheesh

haha.
okay...
i think i've ranted enough
if not i'll come back again later =)
sigh
a students life is filled with sorrow and dissatisfaction

grateful.

Thank You God
for answering my prayers.
i know that i've been lazy.
i've been out the whole day
and once again i'm studying last minute.
but You've listened to me
and granted me a quick mind.
a mind like a sponge,
ready to absorb everything i memorize.

now,
i just pray that no one squeezes all the information out.
haha.


now my head feels heavier.
not sure whether it's cuz of the lack of sleep
or cuz i do have loads of information in there
waiting to be squeezed out tmr.

bahs.
talking nonsense.

if he knows that i'm here writing this
and not studying....
he'll so kill me.
nah, just joking!
he loves me too much to kill me
probably strangle me.
haha
okay!
enough nonsense.
back to studying!

finals.

finals are here.
this week and next.
and as usual....
suddenly i'll have loads of motivation to update this blog.

hmmmm...
but today's one will be short.
don't know why this time round,
i started getting stressed earlier.

probably cuz i had 2 B's the last sem.
so now i must work harder to get back my A's.

gotta get down to studying now.


tata =)

grey.

when we were younger,
things were sort of different.
things were kind of black & white.

do not do this,
do not do that.
do this,
do that.
don't go there,
go here.

our personalities and viewpoints were somehow similar to our peers.
we would know that some of our thoughts would be best if it would just remain as thoughts.
never to be put into actions.
we would know our limits and boundaries.

but.....
as we grow older,
things seem to be a little more "complicated"
things do not seem as black & white like they do before.

eventually,
everything becomes cloudy.
it becomes grey.

as we grow older,
we lose a little of ourselves
and sometimes...
we turn into someone we do not know entirely.

somehow,
our limits and boundaries seems to be able to expand themselves.
our thoughts do not remain as thoughts anymore,
we become braver to put them into actions.

eventually,
everything becomes cloudy.
it becomes grey.

updates.

more updates to come.
once my prayers are answered =(

trust.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge Him,
and He will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3 : 5 & 6

sigh.

i can only heave a deep, loud, heavy sigh!