Hello..

Hello..

She has mentioned to me repeatedly that this blog should change the name to esther.blogspot.. Ha.. Ha..

Well, time has really gone by so quickly.. Coming November will my 5th month working in Astro Awani already, yea.. Already waiting for my 5th month salary.. Haha.. Work has been okay.. Nothing much to update but just normal stuff like go work, go eat, go back work, then go home.. Thats about it for past 4 months..

As for he and she, we have just deposited our very first savings into our account.. Was really happy to see our savings and pray and hope it'll grow quickly.. :) haha.. But was glad that we have started something..

What else.. Erm.. Oh yea.. Liverpool beat Manchester United AGAIN in the last week's premier league encounter.. Oh well, what more can i say? We beat u guys 3 in a row.. It has been great to see this club that he and she support beating The Red Devils..

I'm now currently working.. Nothing much thats why decided to update this blog now.. When back at home means lazy la coz got my football manager game to play or heroes to watch or sleep.. Thats why no blogging..

To all the MU fans, keep hoping that u guys will beat us at Old Trafford la :) Until then, thats all..

Have a great day.. God bless..

save....?

if some of u don't already know...
i do not have the word save in my vocab.
and now...
all because of three
it has been made known to me

how am i suppose to save
when the brand that i love so much,
where the closest place it can be found
was in spore,
is now, finally, hereeeeeeee







why is my life so pathetic?
ah sheesh
maybe i can be allowed to buy at least one item a month?





btw,
he went and fix his glasses the other day at aunty joyce's
he also checked whether his power has gone up
so,
out of curiosity,
i checked mine too.
and guess what...?
i have perfect 20-20 vision

i used to have a little bit of power,
very slight,
when i was younger and stupider.
i would purposely read in the dark
or do silly stuff
just so that i can wear glasses
but i thank God,
He preserved my eyes.
i do not need to wear glasses!

running time.

time is certainly running fast.
i didn't realize that it's been a week
since i've last updated.
and it's been "years" since he did.

this week i'm on hols.
but actually i'm supposed to be doing my assignment.
bah.
i should concentrate on my assignment
so that i can get my straight A's back.
i really think it's my assignments that are bringing my grades down.
due to the last minute-ness
that i love so much.

oh wells...
as for now.
back to my games!

yet will I praise thee.

i choose to give praise to God,
even if my flesh is telling me not to.

i choose to thank Him,
for giving me what i do not deserve.

i choose to look at the better side,
rather than the bad.

i choose to praise Him.






i totally forgot that the results were out last week
cuz now i'm having a really really short sem.
so last week i only had 2 days of class
cuz they gave us friday off.

i thought i would fail one of my subjects
cuz seriously....
i couldnt answer most of it
and it was the last paper.
i didnt really have the mood to study anymore.
but i got an A- for that.
God is good huh?
He's so merciful.

however, i also didnt think that i would get good results.
considering that i crammed everything in the night before
also, doing assignments at the very last minute possible.
that's one of the reasons why im not working in a kindy now
cuz then i wont have the time to do last minute work.

sigh.
that's why...
it has gotten me such lousy lousy lousy grades.

once again,
this sem,
i got 2A's and 2B's
certainly nothing to shout about.
guess what he said was right huh?
that what i got was good....
based on the effort i put in.

guess i never really put in any effort in my studies.
sigh.
i've lost my streak of straight A's.
oh Lord God!
i suck at this studying thing....!!!!

sigh.
this sucks now.
i want my A's back...

argh!
what am i doing...?
im suppose to be praising God.

but but but....
i cant.

seven.

i just realized that numbers has relevance to my life.
not sure whether u guys remember....
but i have posts all from number 1-6.
but skipping 5 of course.
can't really think bout 5 now.
right now....
i'll just continue on with number 7.

6 months ago *click*,
i started teaching tuition.
yes.....
only 6 miserable months.

now,
on the 7th month,
they say they wanna stop.

not sure if u read my post bout...
ah see for urself *click*
but i really thought that maybe God had a plan.
i was waiting for the bigger picture.
but before i could take a step back,
God took it from me.
so.....
it's not God's plan for me?

i feel so discouraged now.
does it mean that i suck at teaching?
but i really feel that i'm no good in teaching.
ah.... whatever.
i have no idea what i'm saying.
too much stuff in my head.



whatever it is.

the main point is that.

after 7 months,
i'm no longer needed.


maybe i'm not doing a good job.
maybe i suck at what i'm doing.

sigh.

i don't know.

i don't know.

oh boy.

temptation,
oh temptation,
how can i get rid of u?

why do u always love to stick to me?


i hate it when the voice inside of me gets muted during...
and only can be heard after.

like what happened just now.


i chose to act according to my own selfish desires.
chose to shut the voice until it's over.
and only when it's over
do i think things through.
maybe this,
maybe that.

i know i know.
temptations are caused by myself.
i asked for it.
and it only can get the better of me
when i allow it to.

which i did.
i allowed it to.
and now i regret it.
i hope i have enough courage to apologize tmr.




maybe you were getting it from one side
and u didnt need to get it from me too....

i'm sorry.
goodnight....

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they say u have a choice bout prophecies right?