i've been too lazy to update & he has yet to get an internet connection. life has been normal lately. started to do my QT again. been ojt-ing. we still have the umph to do it. suddenly passing seems achievable.
we've been cooking for quite a number of times cuz i've been going to his house after my class for dinner. help out abit la. u know...? =) it would help us tremendously in the future. what with me having no clue about cooking.at least he's not as bad as i am.
so anyway... today we've decided to cook for my father. actually i decided to do so. i manage to steal the "secret" recipe from uncle alan. muahahhaha! wanted to show my dad that i'm finally learning how to cook. both set of parents have been asking me to learn how to cook. sheesh. okay already.
this time was the only time we remembered to take photos of the process, the during & the after. i've taken the product of the other times that we cooked but posting it up or even looking at those photos makes me miss my phone. so.......... decided not to. 
Thursday, July 24, 2008
cooking number..........
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
of stickers & blessings
i brought a bunch of stickers on sunday to pass to the little girls cuz i thought "hmmm... i won't play with stickers anymore." i only manage to pass to kaylee half of what i brought. little did i know, claire would be interested. she took one of it. then during EE, she was choosing more and started sticking on her learning cards. slowly, she sticked one on my work book. it was a glittery purple seahorse. and it got me started. i slowly choose more and more. i couldn't stop myself. we kept a few for jessica as well. then we moved on to jon's learning card. then kok fei's. then michie wanted some too. my goodnesssss.....!
the end resultwhen u've grown way pass kiddy stage, do u find urself doing things which u'll never do when u were younger...? i remember how we used to hate doing the actions to the songs in children church cuz of how "childish" we might look. but i love doing all those actions now. i remember how we wish we can sit on the grown-up rides cuz of how "grown-up" we will look. but now i wanna sit on the kiddy rides also cannot ar....
oh boy i sound OLD!!!
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just wanna thank God for His blessings. everyday without fail, i would have good parking in college. now that the holiday people are back. it's REALLY tough to find good parking in college. u see... there are many floors in the basement bout 5 half-floors (meaning the elevator is in the middle and goes all the way down. so it's like half then go down another floor, half then go down another floor. bahs. i'm confusing u.come and see for urself) and 1 for staff only if i'm not mistaken.
but still there's not enough parking cuz the building is not very wide. so the first floor is only for motorcycles and principles or it's reserved one la. but some students park there. the 2nd floor is where we can park and it's my most fav. parking level cuz it's easy to go out and it's the brightest. the lower u go, the darker it gets. my classes are from 3-6. so it's dangerous for me to park at a lower parking floor cuz by the time my class ends, the place would be quite deserted.
and everyday without fail, when i reach college, there'll be a nice parking waiting for me on the 2nd floor. truly truly God's work. nothing could have been done for me to get that parking without God's help. all praise to God.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
one week
it's been one week since it happened
it's been one week since i last felt like giving up
it's been one week since i realized that i'm not growing
it's been one week since i played futsal
it's been one week since we last updated
at least he has an excuse of not having internet
well well well.... i had alot on my mind this afternoon while i was driving to college. i had so much to write bout. so much to express. but now, when i finally am able to write it out..... i can't. children church has started a prayer series, the 40-day prayer & fast is coming soon. what am i doing...? nothing. no QT, no praying (only when i'm driving to college), nothing.
when i go for class, my body is there but my mind is not. i can see the lecturers mouth move but i can't hear any sound. oh how i wish my classes was like my foundation year. the lecturers made me look forward to class but now the lecturers make me wanna run away from class.
btw, i'm still using my number. manage to get back the number. =)
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
giving up
i was at the verge of giving up. it's so easy huh? giving up is way way easier than working things out. but giving up years? not THAT easy. but it was even easier after the incident. easier to say those 2 "forbidden" words. easier to put the blame on someone other than urself
but yet.... i can't give up. there are things that is still holding me back from making that decision. time..... just give me time. however, now everything is pilling up. assignments, EE, classes, recent incident, house chores, emotions, etc. everything is causing me to let go of the accelerator and roll back down the hill. my mind is telling me that i have lots of reasons to let go. to give up.
EVERYDAY
once in a lifetime
means there's no second chance
so i believe that you and me
should grab it while we can
make it last forever
and never give it back
it's our turn, and i'm loving where we're at
because this moment's really all we have
everyday
of our lives
wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight
gonna run
while we're young
and keep the faith
everyday
from right now
gonna use our voices and scream out loud
take my hand
together we will celebrate
everyday
they say that you should follow
and chase down what you dream
but if you get lost and lose yourself
what does it really mean?
no matter where we're going
it starts from where we are
there's more to life
when we listen to our heart
and because of you
i got the strength to start
we're taking it back
we're doing it again
together
it's better like that
and stronger now
than ever
we're not gonna lose
cause we get to choose
that's how it's gonna be
everyday!
live everyday!
love everyday!
i'm sorry
sorry will never be enough.. sorry can't make things back to normal.. sorry can't find back the lost..
it's my fault.. my stupidity and my bloody careless mistake.. why would such thing happened and i never realised it? plain stupidity..
i wish i can turn back time to be more watchful so that shit like this will never happen.. but i can't.. it already happened..
i will pay the price.. but i just can't do it now.. give me another year.. promise will get back the lost when i'm capable..
i'm sorry uncle, aunty and dear.. its all my fault and i deeply ask for your apologies..
God,
we ask for your protections over us.. most importantly protect dear and family.. this lesson we learnt is paid with a very expensive price.. we are sorry for the sins we have committed against You and ask for Your forgiveness.. God we ask of You for healing emotionally and mentally.. grant Your favour upon us Lord.. Amen..
worst day of my life
1 JULY 2008
taking things for granted
assuming that nothing will happen
thinking that it'll never happen to me
just wanna thank God that no one got hurt
but one did get hurt emotionally, mentally
i can't even say it
or admit it
it's all my fault
and now i have to pay the price
a very very expensive price
sorry papa sorry mummy
i caused so much trouble
we only got home at 2 am this morning
couldn't sleep
couldn't be normal
all i could think of is my stuff
will there be a miracle?
can there be a miracle?
of course.... God can do all things
but do i believe that it'll come true?
do i have faith to believe that it will?
do i believe that there'll be a miracle
logically....... it won't come true
but our relationship with God is not like that right?
it's not logical
it's just sitting on the other chair
just the transfer from our chair to God's chair
i have no idea how am i gonna do the presentation for EE
no idea what am i gonna do now
i don't know where to start
i don't know what to do
i don't know
GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
oh the joy!
something awaited my return last night
it was pay back time
cuz i waited for a million years
i wouldn't have found out about it if it wasn't for francis
thank you francis
the touch of it
the feel of it
even looking at it
made me feel happy all over
everything else in the world faded
it was just me and it
oh the joy!
now that i have
MY PINK MONOPOLY!!!!!


can't wait to play!






