Praise God... Thank God...

Dear God,
thank You for helping me, guiding me, giving me ideas, and seeing me through for my previous semester.. i couldn't ask more for the results i've gotten.. it is great God.. thank You so much for these results and I acknowledge that without You, these results won't come true.. so praise You God, and all glory goes to You.. Amen.

WOW! guess what? I'm very happy.. really glad.. no.. no.. not because Spain had won the EURO 2008.. come on.. I just checked my results for my previous semester.. and God answered my prayer, not only that.. He listens to everything I've said and He made it all come true..

see, I've completed 3 subjects in the previous semester and i need to get at least all credits in order for me to overload one subject for my next semester, because i want to graduate by June 2009 =) hence, i prayed and ask God.. that i need at least all credits in order for me to overload next sem AND if there is one distinction, it will be a bonus.. so i prayed this quite often.. and during wednesday's prayer meeting also, my brothers prayed for me as well.. so God hears all that we've said, and asked..

so, went to my uni website to checked the results earlier.. coz this internet here take a bit of time to load la.. means slow la.. haha.. so while waiting for it to load.. i kept praying in tongues.. and my hands were shaking, this is probably caused by the badminton yesterday la.. hahaha.. and my stomach wasn't very well either.. felt like sh***ing.. no not shopping.. =) and still feels quite the same now.. nvm.. write finish this one first.. and finally, finishing loading.. the moment of truth.. i scroll down slowly.. definitely much much slower compare when you are in facebook.. haha.. thought by doing that.. i'll get to see one results at a time.. so i scroll.. scroll.. scroll..

aiyak.. at the final scroll.. all three results came out.. so i saw the results and i smiled and said: Thank You God, Thank You God! Hallelujah!.. coz the results are just too good for me.. so what i got?



TWO CREDITS and ONE DISTINCTION!

Media audiences and the Public - C 65
Documentary - C 67
Cultural Media Policy - D 70

Credits which was what i needed.. and a Distinction? really a bonus from God.. coz it was just ngam ngam 70 only.. =) this is great and all glory to God who answers prayers... Thank You God..

I also wanna thank dear for helping me in my assignments.. not only she has helped me but also supported me and giving me lots of ideas and bearing with me for almost 4 weeks? coz every week i had an 2000 word academic writting essay due.. so thank you so much dear for helping me.. hugs.. then guys, i also want to thank you all for praying for me.. every prayer meeting.. i came, and we prayed together.. the results? you've heard it.. God answered all of our prayers..

So, I'm truly thankful for answered prayers from God and the lives God has blessed me with.. will continue to rely on You, God, and depending on You in my final year in uni..

=)

Finale: Deutchland vs. Espanyol

So, Spain won last night.. with a 3 - 0 win.. scored 3 goals.. but none of them came from our liverpool star fernando torres.. sad.. in fact, he got subsitute and his subsitute scored the 2nd goal for the game.. its okay.. Spain are through and they are gonna win the EURO 2008. .

Once again, i failed to stay awake to watch the game.. planned to sleep early at 10.30pm and set alarm at 2.30am to watch the game.. but when the mission impossible ringing tone (my alarm ring tone) =) started to ring at 2.30am, i looked at it, offed it and went back to sleep.. next thing i know.. i got awake.. checked the time, it was already 6 something.. haha.. so went to pee and then sleep back again.. then the actual time of getting up, 9.30am..

So, now at 4.50pm, getting ready to go off from work.. there is no one else in the office except for my body, soul and spirit.. =) coz mum has left work at about lunch time coz they are going to malacca.. for the next 3 days.. me? home alone.. so since lunch time, finished the work she gave me and took me about 2 minutes to do it.. haha.. and have been bubble trouble until like just now.. its really nice.. have u all tried to play it? i've reach up to level 17, thats the max i went.. u can do better? at 5.30 sharp, i'm gonna leave this place =) and going to watch KungFu Panda with my beloved tonight.. heard a lot of good comment about this show.. so going to watch it tonight.. for now.. more bubble trouble! =)

Underdog and Champion

It's true that underdogs will not win a tournament like the EURO 2008 but the Turkish Delight had put on a great fight or for the Germans a big scare against Germany last night.. Turkey, being the underdog to meet Germany in the semi final, much credit given to them for bearing the injuries and suspension of the first choice players and putting in their second best to face the Germans.. despite the loss, they had given the German a big scare when they led 1 - 0 in the opening score.. well Germans equalised back and ended half time with a 1 - 1 score. in the second half was another drama.. especially the final 15 minutes of the game.. with a 2 - 1 lead by the germans, Turkish Delight decided to put back their underdog title and equaised with just i think 5 or 4 minutes left in the game. then it was 2 - 2.

Not bad huh? well.. underdogs can never really win.. its true.. they only can put up a great fight.. coz the German defender left back scored a late goal in 90+ minute.. hence, the Germans roasted the Turkey and go through the final with a 3 - 2 =)

As for the Champion, of coz i'm talking about Spain here.. =) they are playing Russia tonight in the other semi final, for the second time playing Russia in this campaign.. which they whoooop Russia 4 - 1 in their first meeting..

So, hopefully, Spain will put their both foot in the final tonight by beating the Russian which whatever scoreline will do for me =) Of coz if Fernando Torres score then it will be good la.. then we will meet the Germans in the final of EURO 2008..

hopefully also that i can stay awake to watch the game tonight at 2.45 am =) which i failed to do so in the quarter final.. until then, see you around and GO ESPANYOL!

a special day

to MY kevin ng hou shin,


today didn't have much significance until 2 years ago. it was the start. the start of something new. it was unexpected yet filled with expectation. it was a burst of excitement and happiness yet filled with uncertainty. these 2 years certainly has passed by really fast, huh babes? i sure do hope that there'll be more to come. the years has passed fast but we couldn't escape the ups and downs we wish......


i hope that u'll keep to ur promise that u'll continue to love, care, manja, and flirt with me
i hope that as we celebrate more anniversaries, our love for each other will grow as well
i hope that we will continue to fall in love with each other over and over again



there's a lot of things that i hope for next time


but......
there is also a lot of things that i know



i know that next time, when we start our own family, u will definitely love me no matter how fat i'll grow
i know that u'll love our children very very much
i know that u will be the greatest, bestest dad and husband anyone can ever have


i love you my dear, darling, honey, sweetheart, baby

HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY!

23, June 2008

To my beloved,

Happy 2nd anniversary.. =) Today is the day where we celebrate our 2 years of relationship, filled with so many of Ups and downs.. and here we are, 2 years had gone passed.. time flies so fast yea dear..

So, just want to say that i love you dear.. and i'm very excited for all the moments that we are going to share as a couple for the many many more years to come.. until we have Oscar in this world then it will be a new challenge for us.. hahaha.. but for now.. i'm very happy to have you and i cherrish every moments we had shared together..

3 days ago we celebrate your 20th brithday and today is our 2nd year.. =) what a beautiful month huh.. =) i think you enjoyed the brithday dinner right? especially the marshroom soup yea.. not bad huh.. =) thank you thank you..

until then.. this is my post for our second anniversary..

I Love You.

anonymous

the more i don't wanna think, the more it comes
the more i'm afraid it'll happen, it happens
the more i wish it away, the faster it comes back
every second the clock ticks, the more i start to wonder
i feel it's gonna end

i dream bout it
i think bout it
i wonder bout it

how much longer will we fool ourselves?
how much deeper do we wanna go before realizing we went too deep?
how much
how much

oh, how i wish time stops
all i need is time
time to think
time to react
time to decide
time to analyze
but no.....
time doesn't wanna wait for me

i sit here
tired, brains halting to a stop
watching the line blink
waiting for me to type something
but i sit here
brains halting to a stop
watching the line blink
enjoying a calm moment
where my brains do not reason
do not fight
do not think

futsal and mahjong

this week we've tried new things. futsal for me and mahjong for him. futsal wasn't THAT fun for me. but i hope our all girls futsal would be better =) he enjoyed mahjong the most la. i won almost the whole game. i won bout 5 times when we were playing with my dad. my dad won once. he ACTUALLY won one game..... BUT he didnt realize that he won. he was wondering how to win. hahhahahah!!! so the win gone to me! yay yays! then we continue to play on when my father went to cook.



the first round i played for the 3rd person, and i won. i didnt cheat okay. then the second round he played for the 3rd person, hoping to win. too bad! i won again! so all in all, i won 7 rounds! woots!

i like the effects of this picture
haha
i found out that it's quite hard to take self potrait with my phone

posing posing
taking pictures with my new phone



the last round that i won

we bought this set from HK
super miniature
hehe

happy birthday and happy nightmare

when i was younger, i used to think that it's a long way more to go to be 17 or 21

when i was 13, i thought it'll take me a million years to get to my sweet 16th bday

when i was 16, i was proud and glad that i'm finally "sweet" 16. thinking that i get my license next year

when i was 17, i thought.... FINALLY! my year to drive has come!

when i was 18, i met the love of my life

now, i'm 20. i'm no longer a "teen". next year i'm 21. and now i'm thinking.....WOAH! time has flown past so fast. never would i thought it'll just take a blink of an eye for me to get here.

now i'm thinking, the day for me to get married is still a long time more. just u wait just u wait.





first of all, just wanna thank those of u who wished me in ur own special ways. secondly, i woke up this morning with a terrible dream bout what's gonna happen for my birthday. sigh. what a way to start my birthday huh? oh wells. i had an early present. it came last week. all the way from spore. so i guess u know who bought for me right?

introducing
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Samsung Soul

it's the 3rd ultra edition

with touch screen in the middle
i can change the colors

perfect with a 5-megapixel camera
however, i'm still trying to use it
if u look closely, u can see my fan

we have been researching bout this phone for quite some time now. watched countless videos and went to lots of websites. looking for reviews bout the phone. i'm still handling it very delicately. wonder how long will it last. pressing the keypads softly, afraid that it might spoil faster. holding on tightly but not too tight, afraid that i might drop it.






lastly.........

I'M OLD!
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I'M OLD!

20 June, 2008..

Happy Birthday dear.. today is the 20th of June and its your 20th birthday =) still young still young.. no worries about the age.. is still the same when your were 19 or 18 or 17.. same same only..

Pray that you'll continue be blessed by God's guidance and blessings in this year and will continue to see His marvelous works in your life.. Pray that you'll continue to grow more too.. you are a very special child, to God.. and to me, you're just a great partner.. really..

So I really hope you will enjoy this day as you celebrate together with good friends and good food.. and me =D Im' going to google recipes for marshroom soup now to enhance the flavour of the soup I'm making tonight.. hope you'll like it.. and also that we'll be big winners in monopolying the board tonight =)

Until then, see you later.. and again,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

a t l a s t

after months, i've finally decided that i need to get some exercise

after months of excuses, i've finally bout em

after months of watching them play, i thought maybe it's not so bad after all

i wanted puma
but the one that i wanted was long gone!
next time, i'll buy what i like first then claim back
given the permission to do so

but watching people play and actually playing it urself it's totally different


for example, wall climbing, i've climbed before. many years ago and decided to never do it again. never. i went to one of the days where cia, allan, mich, dax, and eve were climbing, i felt a sudden urge to climb. then i came to my senses that it'll be a waste of money cuz i will be too scared to do anything that they're doing.


so i hope it won't be the same as futsal.

once again

we shared
we talked
we planted
but none
nothing


salt added to the wound


asked God
talked to God
He said "you can plant, you can water, but it is I who make things grow"

speechless

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IDIOT!

You are welcome..

How's everyone doing? =)

To dear: You are welcome.. all this is cause of love.. =) so, do appreciate more in the future la.. hehe=D

About the scary scary scary.. haha.. its just different.. you're right.. different.. but of course in the future it will be better la.. coz we are no longer kids.. so the future, it'll be better and easier and not worse, most definitely..

By the way,

Espanyol won! 4-1 win over the Russian.. A very good win indeed.. Torres and Villa's partnership in the front is just magnificent.. GoGo amigos..

To Chow Zhen Yi: I'm sorry for the lost yesterday.. the Croatians continue to be the dark horse to win this tournament.. and Germany played lousy last night.. but it was a nice goal from Podooooolski.. =)

Hope you all will have a good second half at work after your lunch.. =)

monster, laze, chicks, smiles

SCARY SCARY SCARY

never wanna be in that situation again
do we always do something wrong in front of u?
why does it seem that way?
whatever



different backgrounds
different believes
different ways
different thoughts
different expectations

everything's SO different
it's all becoming clearer day by day


wonder how isit gonna be in the future
will it be worse?
will it be easier?
hmmmmm... got a feeling that it'll be worse

listening to leoni lewis - better in time
all that's ringing in my ear is "it'll all get better in time"
yeah sure... consoling myself
*pats self*

look at her
so nonsense
getting a massage from my father

she even has her own pillow
ish

cc trip to bird park

sho sho sho CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
hope we didn't kill any of them after that
seriously. should have seen the kids
all going crazy
not only the kids la
the adults as well

never truly appreciated the things that he does for me. i mean... i do acknowledge it. but have taken it for granted. someone asked me that day whether he does what i says or something like that (can't really remember) and i guess i never realized it until someone from outside of my box told me that. then i realized that it's true. whatever i've said that i want or i felt like having, he will get it done for me.

thank you baby for treating me like a "queen" and i'm sorry that i've taken you for granted

Espanyol

Hello.. second week in my mum's office.. not much work to do.. come in daily at about 10 plus.. leave work about 4.30 to 4.45pm daily.. =) do i get paid? i dont know.. haha.. mother needs help of coz go help la.. but i'm pretty sure will get some extra allowances kua.. so today came in at about 12.30 coz went to the bank and lunch first and since, i have been surfing the net, play facebook, write some cheques, chat with Loy.. for quite long and now.. blogs..

So, tonight will be the first match Spain will play in the Euro 2008 campaign.. playing who? Russia.. tough tough match.. will be a really nice match to watch.. wonder why i support Spain in this Euro? Well.. lets just say few of my liverpool players are from spain.. like..

Fernando Torres, Xabi Alonso and Pepe Reina..

Wanted to post up pictures of them for you to see one.. but the connection is very slow.. so can't do.. thought you might want to support Spain as well after seeing how good looking they are.. you can go google them.. especially Pepe Reina =)

So i guess will be watching the match tonight and hope Spain will start the campaign with a win.. but its gonna be tough.. its 3.35 and one more hour i'll be finishing work.. =) not bad huh my 'job'.. haha..

baby is in class now and she is falling asleep.. haha.. where else, i'm gonna go play games now.. ping pong in miniclips.com is really fun.. should try it.. haha..

Byebye...

The Month of June..

Well.. we are already at the 9th day in the month of June. This month of the year is really special for he and she, in fact, this is where stories of he and she began, in the month of June. Will tell more of the story when the day appraoch. =) Not just that, this is also the month when she was born. How nice is it right to celebrate both of this day in the same month =) It's nice.. beautiful..

I'm already 21 and she is turning 20 soon.. big girl already ah.. Not sure about you all, but as you grow older, birthday celebration is no more a much anticipating, very exciting, or days counting kind of day, at least for me. I celebrated my 21st birthday in the begining of this year and it felt pretty much normal as i thought it would be like a wah twenty one years old di can' wait and very special day. Of course, that day was nice with friends and baby having dinner together on top of a hill with nice scenary over the KL city. It was a good time spent together with friends with much fun and happiness and no worries night but birthday was just like okay I'm 21 already and happy birthday! aiyah i don't know how to say la.. something like that la. Of course I thank all those who came and celebrate this day with me.. Appreciate everyone of you la..

So, I'm not sure how my baby feels about her birthday coming soon where she will turn 20 =) but I'm definitely excited to celebrate our 2nd year anniversary soon.. yea..yea.. some of you might say 2 years only ma.. But really, I'm happy and excited to celebrate this day..

I don't know what I'm writing in this post la.. Just wanted to post something since I haven't been doing that caused of no Internet at home but since I'm working at my mum's office now and there is internet connection, so ma post lo.. don't know how long i'll be working here and guess it will be until there is new staff employed and the longest i can work is until August because that is when my new semester starts again.. Final year for Uni already.. very fast..

So till then, I'll go play some games now first and surf the net until i post something again..

Byebye..

this little light of mine

where has God been leading you to shine the light of Jesus? what's holding you back?







after family camp, i've made it a point to do QT every morning. whenever i'm lazy to do it, i keep telling myself that i'll be missing a whole lot of what God wants to tell me. God never fails to amaze me. yesterday, during EE, timothy asked us to share to our friends from now on and i was asking God "aww man. God.... why? i've just started in SEGi college and now U want me to share to my friends there? what if they reject me and they ask everyone [i have bout 56-57(including me) in my class. but we're splitting to half soon] to stay away from me. then i'll be in the college with no friends."


guess what....? today's verse was matthew 5:11-16. the first verse itself was saying that it is a blessing when people insult, persecute, and falsely say all kinds of evil against u cause of God. wah wah wah....! it's a blessing when people do that arrr... my spiritual side goes YAYYYYYY!!! but my human side goes no way no way. not gonna go through that.


it goes on talking bout the lighthouse story. what's its purpose for sailors. lighthouses were not built to be admired, they were built to guide sailors to safety. without light, lighthouses are useless.


there are times when we feel useless to everyone, including God. we begin to forget that Jesus said we are the light of the world, whether we feel like it or not. Jesus said that we shouldn't hide lights under baskets; neither should we "hide" them by spending time only with fellow believers.



it's so much easier isn't? just spending time with those who believe in the same thing that we do. one thing that i asked God before starting my college life again was to give me all pre-christian friends. that way i can't come up with an excuse of not having friends to share to. and now, when i have a mixture but mostly pre-christian friends, i'm afraid to share with them. afraid of rejection. what nonsense right?

busy busy

busy busy busy busy... with what? i don't know. don't ask me. i seem to enjoy filling my time with "nonsense" (nonsense = games, blogs, sleep, lepaking, watching grey's, etc) and not doing things that i should do. awww man. i'm committing a sin of omission am i...? sheesh. i'm just glad that today is over. taught in cradle roll which i wasn't VERY prepared for. bahs.


so anyway, i just realized that this week is gonna be week 3 in SEGi college for me. 3 weeks since i've been in that college....! seriously time flies huh?? my lecturer said that from week 3 onwards, the tutorial as well as the workload will start. and filling my day with nonsense certainly has to stop soon...... REAL SOON. same goes with laziness and procrastination

3 weeks and i have no idea where the computer lab is. i had no idea where was the library until i had a class on friday and my lecturer told us to go to the library and explore cuz she said if not, some of us won't explore at all. hahaha. that was my first time walking around the library. seriously. things are so different from kdu. i always thought kdu's facilities are pretty small and lousy. wait till u see SEGi's. haha.

anyway... just thought i wanna write something here. maybe write some rubbish or nonsense or something for u guys to read. brain is slowly shutting down. so guess this is where i'll stop. i'll write bout bird park and other stuff some other day. now, i just wanna sleep and dream that i have my months of holiday back. ugh!

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hmmm... this blog is really dead huh? compared to the first time we started this blog. well, can't do much bout it. he doesn't have internet connection.... yet. i'm struggling with life as a student again. feels weird studying again. having to find friends all over again. trying to fit in again. doing everything again. sheesh. hate this kinda changes. i hate changes.

i was watching grey's this morning. and it was talking bout letting go of the person u love. sometimes it's easy and sometimes it hurts so bad that u end up in square one. well, for me, i feel like i'm holding on to him real tightly. not sure whether he can breathe.

i really wish i can let him go and find his and my own set of friends
i wish that i can let him go to do the works of God
i wish that i can let him go so that i don't have to worry about everything, every single second of the time


i worry too much
i think too much
i do everything too much
sheesh



i'm never good at managing my time wisely. always feeling busy but actually i'm not.

i'm never good at making or keeping friendships cuz i just suck at it

i'm never good at expressing how i feel cuz i "ENJOY" keeping everything inside

i'm never good at trusting people cuz i'm afraid to be hurt

i'm never good at doing things consistently cuz after a while....... i'm too lazy






shucks. from a normal post i manage to turn it into an emo post. think i better stop now before i start feeling depressed. no no no.... I MUST THINK POSITIVELY!!!! DON'T WORRY. STOP WORRYING! STOP THINKING SO MUCH!



cia..... i've failed. i keep forgetting to say something positive after i say something negative.

a month plus

it's been a month and few days since my mum left to spore to work. time has certainly passed fast and whoever said that time can heal certainly did not mention how many million years it'll take. i never thought that it would affect me. thought that i could have all the freedom that i have been longing for. but now when i've gotten the so-called long-awaited "freedom", i've realized that i would rather trade it for my family.

my home definitely do not feel like a home now. what with wing lian being away in aussieland, mum in spore, han lian distant, my father.... well, still the same i guess. and for me..... missing how my family used to be.

no family is ever perfect. surely there'll be fights, misunderstandings, hate, hurt, etc etc. i never knew how much i would miss it. now all i have is pin-drop silence. u must be thinking "is she crazy??? she wants all those back?? i would give anything to take it away" yeah yeah. sure. say that. wait till u don't have it anymore. then....come back and let me know what u think yeah?

now with my mum gone and only coming back on most weekends (my father will go over if she's not coming back)
i don't have anyone......
to nag me to fold the clothes (in the end she'll fold the clothes)
to iron my clothes
then she'll nag me to hang up the ironed clothes
to clean up my room a little
to come home earlier cuz it's dangerous to drive alone at night
to eat those "expensive" medicines that she bought
to drink the woman soup (yucks!)
to do something more productive than to play my comp games


sigh... i miss my family

Maxis or tmnet

guys..



sorry for not been updating this blog.. this is cause there is no internet connection in my house anymore.. i think its about a month already.. hence, no update on the blog and less checking emails.. but she has been doing my games in facebook.. haha.. thats why you can see there is progress in parking wars and triumph.. hehe..


back to the Internet..



really, our lives today are so dependent on these new media - Internet, mobile phone and withouht them even only just for one day, its really difficult.. so, i've been depending on the traditional media ever since the Internet in my house had been terminated. i've been watching TV regularly especially for updates on news, football transfer news, and soon, it will be for EURO2008 =) GO ESPANYOL..



despite life without internet for the past one month.. i've decided to put back the internet in my house.. this time, i'm thinking of not gonna depend on streamyx anymore and change to Maxis Broadband..

or

Really, tmnet service is really bad.. that's the main reason for the switch.. but at the same time, i don't know how reliable is Maxis Broadband.. for now, my choice is Maxis.. i hope this is the right choice..