a month plus

it's been a month and few days since my mum left to spore to work. time has certainly passed fast and whoever said that time can heal certainly did not mention how many million years it'll take. i never thought that it would affect me. thought that i could have all the freedom that i have been longing for. but now when i've gotten the so-called long-awaited "freedom", i've realized that i would rather trade it for my family.

my home definitely do not feel like a home now. what with wing lian being away in aussieland, mum in spore, han lian distant, my father.... well, still the same i guess. and for me..... missing how my family used to be.

no family is ever perfect. surely there'll be fights, misunderstandings, hate, hurt, etc etc. i never knew how much i would miss it. now all i have is pin-drop silence. u must be thinking "is she crazy??? she wants all those back?? i would give anything to take it away" yeah yeah. sure. say that. wait till u don't have it anymore. then....come back and let me know what u think yeah?

now with my mum gone and only coming back on most weekends (my father will go over if she's not coming back)
i don't have anyone......
to nag me to fold the clothes (in the end she'll fold the clothes)
to iron my clothes
then she'll nag me to hang up the ironed clothes
to clean up my room a little
to come home earlier cuz it's dangerous to drive alone at night
to eat those "expensive" medicines that she bought
to drink the woman soup (yucks!)
to do something more productive than to play my comp games


sigh... i miss my family