no means no.

i refuse to study.
refuse to prepare for my last paper tmr.
why can't i be on holiday like the rest of the people?
why can't i be stress-free on the month dedicated for celebrations?
we're suppose to be rejoicing.
suppose to be partying.
suppose to celebrate & eat.
but but but.....
i'm stressing over exams.
when i'm suppose to be happy-ing with the rest of the people.
ugh!
sigh.
this is so sad.
no no no.
i can't be like this.
i don't wanna stare blankly at my paper tmr and go "hey... i wrote this down yesterday. but i don't remember!"
i wanna answer all the questions.
i wanna answer them correctly and be certain that it's correct.
no no no.
i must study.
i must memorize.
i must ask God for strength.
i need Him.
need His brains.
God, please grant me Your strength.
i need it.
give me healing as well.
now, instead of stopping stuff from coming down my nose.
it's blocked.
so im not sure which is better.
bah.
need to study.
think i better off my comp.
it's distracting me.
it's asking me to play games and blog bout all the stuff which i haven't blog bout.
must turn off the temptation.
okay.
think i'm going crazy.
bye!