bad with goodbyes.

it's been a while since we've updated.
since we've even considered of updating.
but i need somewhere to rant.
somewhere to express my thoughts.


there's just so many questions going on in my mind.
i just need to let it all out.


at times i wonder what is it that i'm doing here.
why did i even consider this.
i've always wanted to be wth family.
always want family to be closeby.
if not family, then familiarity.
i'm not an adventure kind of person.
not a person who like to do things on my own.

but yet, being here has made being alone, normal.


so many questions which i don't think i'll ever find an answer to.


when there's a good thing,
it always comes together with something bad.


i don't like goodbyes.
don't like the feelings that comes with it.
hate it.
really hate it.



9:37 am