forbidden words

saying it in my head was definitely different when i almost literally said it
esp. when i saw the consequence of it
i have been toying with the idea for quite some time
never manage to bring myself to do it

i've made the mistake once and i certainly do not wanna repeat it

i've thought of it countless times
but then i ask myself
do i really wanna do it?
is this what i really want?
"NO" was always the answer

it almost happen today
and i think no one would ever wanna be in that position ever again
it was suffocating
it felt like death
i'm ashamed that i even thought about it

it's so easy to forget....
bout the good times
the reasons
the beginning
the sparks
the fire starter

so easy to shut up and forget bout it



i'm relieved and happy to say that the pieces are all coming back together