over the years.

tmr is yf camp
and as i was packing,
i can't help but reminiscence of the past 10 years of yf camp
yes, you read it correctly.
it has been a decade.
i didn't notice it until i started to think about camp.

i started going for camp when i was 12.
over the years,
there were times where i really did NOT want to go for camp.
it was either the place was really dirty
or i didn't know anyone
or just didn't feel like going.

when i was younger,
when it was time for sharing about 'why i came for camp..'
i would have to crack my brains for stuff to share.
it was hard, tough to answer.
in fact, it was hard for me to even open my mouth to speak.
when it came to my turn,
i would just mumble something and pass it to the next person.

and every year...
it would be same.
up until i grew older.
forced to be the 'tai ka che'
because i can never be the small girl that i was,
not allowed to shut up and be quiet.
i had to share, say something, make younger ones feel comfortable.

soon, it was group assistant
then, dorm leader
and next was worship leader.
roles began to change and shift.
it became bigger and bigger.

so ever since i started my diploma,
i either had exams or assignments due during camp
and i would feel weird that i wasn't able to go for full camp.
gone were the days of the issue's: 'going or not going'
now it was: 'why can't i go...?!'

now...
things have also changed.
did not take any major roles because of certain things.
i can't help but face the fact that...
after 10 years or a decade (sounds nicer),
this will be my very last camp
and to add to that,
i get to have the role as a photographer.
to document the special moments in this camp
because i believe that....
many things will change,
and decisions will be made and carried through.


sigh..
writing this post makes me feel sad now
so... on to a happier news


as you know,
christmas is near.
bought my MOST expensive present yet.
why am i so generous you may ask..
guess it is the thing called LOVE.
awww. so cheesy

may i present to you
his early christmas and birthday present

the new touch..
for the best person on earth.