the voice within

as i was driving home from prayer meeting just now, i spotted a car which had no lights on. so i was wondering whether that would be alex & li ann's. i kinda drove "faster" than usual to go nearer to that car. when i was behind them... i realized... OH! it's them. getting over excited, i was thinking whether i should highlight or horn. a little voice inside told me to choose the horn. but i was thinking... nah, it's drizzling and the floor is slippery and too late and dangerous to go side-by-side and wave (even more dangerous). therefore, i decided to drive on

as i was passing by the 1st traffic light before the 2nd traffic light to go to my house, where only daring motorists would occasionally come out of no where onto the road, one of them suddenly came out. i was aware. finger ready on the horn. (see... i'm not as blur as what my mum always tells me) before putting on the signal, just what i expected, he swerved onto my lane. straight away i was glad to use my horn. but but but..... no sound was coming out. then did i remember that he was playing with my horn earlier and he forgot to switch it back on! i was and still am SO EXTREMELY furious!

but all in all, just wanna thank God that nothing happened and that i managed to hear the Holy Spirit's prompting to check on my horn

GOODNIGHT!

dear blog..

Dear blog,

sorry for not updating you.. been really busy.. with essays and more essays..

i just finished my global media essay yesterday and handed in at 4.30pm (due at 5pm).. first time, never hand in so late before.. but still want to praise God for His strength and guidance.. without Him, can't imagine myself completing it.. i can never do it if i don't have God..

So whats next? well blog, i have ONE more essay (last one, PR 3000 word essay), TWO journals to pass up (both PR one la, crap), TWO group presentation to go and TWO final test or exam to go.. all this in ONLY 2 weeks time.. sigh.. so much to do one meh.. and also after all these got TWO more exams, dont know whats the date yet.. will know soon la.. i'm doing 4 subjects this semester ma blog, where can have only 2 exams?

So whenever im doing my essay.. i always remember "God is the strength, of my heart" and "I was made to praise You".. these 2 songs reminded me constantly that i should not skip the 2-3 hours in church so that i can have extra time to do my assignments because we were made to praise Him, not do our work AND God is always the strength of our heart, never depend on your own strength to do it.. will feel difficult and tired in the end..

Hence, these are some updates from stories of he.. will be very busy only for the next 3 weeks only la.. after that this semester is done.. so in the mean time, i've got to work hard..

thats all blog.. go and publish this so that the Netizens can read this..

crazy, depressing, amazing

yesterday we went window shopping in ikano & curve. at first it was quite fun. going from shop to shop searching for the RIGHT, PERFECT "costume" for us to wear for our christmas presentation. but as we went from shop to shop, our craziness as well as our hope slowly died and shriveled. we started looking for clothes for ourselves. okay maybe cia was a little more focused than jessica & i. haaha.

but seriously. it became super depressing. cuz some really looked nice, presentable, affordable which fits the package but when we thought of how the other girls might look like or whether it suits the tambourines.............hmmmmm......... not such a good idea after all.

we saw really nice blouses in MNG. but MNG & their prices doesn't fit the package.

"bahs." was what ended the day.

i think this was our last crazy moment. HAHA!

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today is the day where my results came out
it was suppose to come out at bout 3.30pm
but they bluffed us
so at bout 3.45-3.50 pm

(while we were having break)

my friend told us that the results are up

before the class, my lecturer told us not to look at the results until the class has ended
cuz she doesn't want it to affect our mood
results or no results
still affected our mood
so what's the difference right?
the worse of all was that of all places on the 8th floor
they had to post the results up on the wall outside of our classroom
SERIOUSLY!
what are they thinking??!!!
sheesh

so my lecturer ended the class earlier
didn't give us any breaks
no one was allowed to leave the room
unless they cannot tahan any longer
thank God she ended the class 1 hour 15 mins earlier
so everyone rushed out to check their results

faces practically were pasted onto the results sheets
how can i find my student number with all those faces pasted on the wall???!!!!
my goodness
seriously
somemore once they saw their results
they just stood there
staring at that piece of paper
*faint*
i searched frantically
from paper to paper searching for my student number or IC number

FINALLY!!!
it appears!
exam index number, correct.
student number, correct.
IC number, correct.
next............
the results.



2A's & 2A-'s
*blink blink*



what the heck?
are u serious?
brains all jumbled up
words unable to be formed
emotions all mixed into one messy feeling
but but but
are u sure???

u see...
the last friday, my lecturer told us that a HANDFUL of us have failed either one of the subjects or all of them. so all of us wasn't in that a great shock yet. then before she ended her long long speech which contains something along the lines of...

"if u don't know what to do. come talk to us. don't handle it on ur own."
"we will help u solve whatever problems."
"don't be like ur seniors. thinking they can do it all on their own."
"and by the way, 15 people failed 1002 and 17 people failed 1003"

we were like what the heck???? that's so not a HANDFUL! and she claims herself to be an english specialist. english specialist my foot la.


so anyway...
let me end this post nicely

wanna thank those who prayed for me even though i smsed u guys really last minute
wanna thank him who stood by me, bugging me to study (but still last minute)
wanna thank God especially
could not get this kinda result without ALMIGHTY GOD!

(think before my class tmr i'll go and check my results again. think i saw the wrong one. i still can't believe it)

my weekend

at 4 months he's already 7-8 kgs
able to hold his neck up on his own
amazing huh?
but here, he's trying to sit up

"chis. take so many photos for what? never see baby "struggling" to sit up before meh? i'm only 4 months kay. ish"

he was trying to serenade me to sleep


adorable adorable little cutie
sayang

packing up the music instruments to move to the new sanctuary
i helped clean some part of the cymbals kay...
ahaha

jessica & i
sitting around
watching the musicians do their thing

after that, we went to "pat" the kids
super cute la they all
EVERYONE was chasing after the ball

aunty mooi geok went in and played for a while
then it was "young" men vs. young boys

we actually decided to have our own dinner
feel awkward eating with his parents
but a REALLY REALLY awesome sms came while we were watching the kids play futsal
his mum asked whether we wanted to go shogun
how can anyone not take up the offer to a JAPANESE BUFFET DINNER!
the person must be crazy

however, i didn't take any photo of the food cuz we were eating with his extended family as well as his uncle's friends
so of course shy la

after we ate till it was worth our money
then only we realized they were celebrating his uncle's bday
what nonsense right?
sheesh


only managed to take photo of the ice cream

we added some choc
which harden really fast

we even made the aunty & uncles mouth water
so they tried it out
haha
so funny to see them eat it

it was his first time eating fondue
and he certainly enjoyed it
too bad they only had apple, watermelon, and honey dew
no marshmallows
sheesh

Yes.. Completed it

Yes its friday and i thank God its Friday too..

Finally, I've completed my Screen Text 3000 word essay and handed in..

It wasn't me that have completed it.. Was God and me.. He really granted me the strength to do it and God,

Thank You so much! Thank You for granting me your strength to complete my Screen Text essay. Now I just commit the assignment to you and pray that I can pass this subject at the end of this semester. And I need more of your strength God, to complete my Global Media essay, PR essay, my 2 journals and 2 presentations.. and lastly is the exams.. all these will be due in the next 5 weeks? Yes God, 5 weeks.. Please help me some more God.. really need You! Thank You God.. Amen.

Really, God has been so good to me.. started this essay which is due today on Thursday, coz no class ma.. of coz i've done all my research and gather the necessary information before Thursday la.. So woke up at 7.30am, felt so fresh and awake (hardly feel this way), finished washing up and QT, then started to type out my essay at about 8am..

do........do.............do...............and do............

don't want to elaborate so much la.. so from 8 am, AM!.. until 10.30pm, PM! i did my essay.. so count la how many hours.. looking outside my balcony from bright day light until i slowly see it turn dark back.. its crazy.. i dont think anyone can identify with me on that.. coz who on earth will do such thing la? it was my first time also..

so, did i complete the 3000 word by 10.30pm? didnt la.. half way through? definitely la.. i had about 1,800 already by that time.. but couldn't take it coz stared at the white Microsoft Word too long and back aching already.. literally aching.. couldn't bend it until i ask God for help.. straight away okay.. cool huh?

so how? got 1,200 more to go.. so woke up this morning at 4 to continue lo.. thought can finish by 9am like that but no, still not yet done.. but almost la.. then went to find baby, couldn't take it already.. must see her! so went breakfast together then go her house and ask her to edit my undone essay, coz i only left back conclusion only.. so she helped me and finish everything (Thank you dear!) then i came to college..

so to conclude this, as i've mentioned earlier.. i completed my assignment and handed in on time la.. i went to class they were only watching a movie.. so its okay la.. missed one lecture to complete an assignment.. okay la not bad..

so what i'm trying to emphasise in this post is that God has proven to me He can provide what i need.. i needed strength, lots of it because i was sick (forgot to mentioned this.. down with slight fever, cough, flu, soar throat) and He never fails but provided me with lots of strength.. literally i didn't feel sleepy throughout the whole morning and afternoon as i did my essay on thursday..

In conclusion, I Thank God Its Friday!

that's right, "you'll never walk alone"

And I,

tgif.

hmmmm...
i'm kinda in a dilemma
the good ol' friday is here
somehow i'm happy
somehow i'm not

fridays.
means it's almost the end of another week
(the countdown towards the end of the year is nearer)
but it also means the long-awaited weekend is here!

fridays.
means i have to travel up to subang
and he travels down to pj
our classes, both of which is almost the same timing

funny.
how both our timing could be like this

fridays.
is when i dread to go to class
cuz it means i have to travel bout 30mins - 1 hour in order to see him

will the roads be jam today?
will it take long for me to see him?

fridays.
good ol' friday.

for once.

we have been seeing each other everyday
ever since i've started my classes
sometimes we spend the whole day together
sometimes a few hours before and after my class
sometimes just for lunch

but for once.
today, we didn't see each other

it feels weird
feels like i'm missing something
but not to say that it's not good
it's good that we have some time away from each other
but yet.... cuz we're so used to it
it feels weird