During praise and worship this morning, everything was fine until a thought came into my mind during that time.. suddenly i felt i wasn't sure of my salvation and i started to flash back the memories of my Christian journey and how it begun.. the doubt of me having eternal life in heaven with Jesus Christ was all up my mind and it felt scary..
...I came to know Jesus Christ when i was really small.. started to go church with my family since young but i only understand Jesus Christ as a mere head knowledge at that time.. and came me at 12 years old i think, i was water baptist.. i thought every Christian should go through water baptism and so i did it.. but at the age of 15, i sincerely said the sinners prayer with my cg leader witnessing there and accepted Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Saviour to wash away my sins and receive this gift of eternal life (heaven). since then, i know for sure that i do not understand Jesus Christ as just a mere head knowledge but understand that i have a relationship with Him. And i know for sure i'm having eternal life in heaven with Jesus Christ when its time...
So, I was really sure of my salvation at that time, at the age of 15.. but like i said earlier, the doubt of having eternal life came in my mind during the praise and worship this Sunday morning.. so questions like will i go to heaven even i was water baptist before i sincerely said the sinners prayer and accept Jesus Christ? i was really scared and really want to know the answer.. still, i was in doubt.. then i asked myself again, will it be the devil trying to sow doubtfulness of my salvation into my mind at that time? i thought the devil cannot be where God's presence is? surely God's presence was there when we sing praises and worship God during that time.. so why am i having this doubt all of a sudden?
I cannot assume that I have the eternal life.. I have to be sure.. i'll just need to pray and ask God for the confidence of my salvation.. life on earth is just temporial, our body is just a flesh.. what more important is where our soul and spirit will go after our life on earth.. where will we be spending eternity is far more important that all these temporial things on earth now..
I'm still having doubts now.. and still have no answers to the questions mentioned above.. would really love to know the answers.. don't know whether is normal to feel this way or not.. this song is my prayer to God..
...I came to know Jesus Christ when i was really small.. started to go church with my family since young but i only understand Jesus Christ as a mere head knowledge at that time.. and came me at 12 years old i think, i was water baptist.. i thought every Christian should go through water baptism and so i did it.. but at the age of 15, i sincerely said the sinners prayer with my cg leader witnessing there and accepted Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Saviour to wash away my sins and receive this gift of eternal life (heaven). since then, i know for sure that i do not understand Jesus Christ as just a mere head knowledge but understand that i have a relationship with Him. And i know for sure i'm having eternal life in heaven with Jesus Christ when its time...
So, I was really sure of my salvation at that time, at the age of 15.. but like i said earlier, the doubt of having eternal life came in my mind during the praise and worship this Sunday morning.. so questions like will i go to heaven even i was water baptist before i sincerely said the sinners prayer and accept Jesus Christ? i was really scared and really want to know the answer.. still, i was in doubt.. then i asked myself again, will it be the devil trying to sow doubtfulness of my salvation into my mind at that time? i thought the devil cannot be where God's presence is? surely God's presence was there when we sing praises and worship God during that time.. so why am i having this doubt all of a sudden?
I cannot assume that I have the eternal life.. I have to be sure.. i'll just need to pray and ask God for the confidence of my salvation.. life on earth is just temporial, our body is just a flesh.. what more important is where our soul and spirit will go after our life on earth.. where will we be spending eternity is far more important that all these temporial things on earth now..
I'm still having doubts now.. and still have no answers to the questions mentioned above.. would really love to know the answers.. don't know whether is normal to feel this way or not.. this song is my prayer to God..
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